Your eyes are too dark. Your hair is too short. What in the fuck are you wearing? Now you just look pissed off. Remember all the clothes you used to fit into? (soft laughter) Remember when you were so chubby you didn’t fit into anything? You wore the same outfit every day and just kept eating. And then you didn’t eat at all.

That haircut is for a slender person. Do you even look like a girl anymore? But you’re not a “girl” anymore, are you? You’re a woman. You’re old. And you’re still alone. Do you think you’ll be alone forever? Do you think it’s because of your hair and your eyes and your body? Maybe it’s just you. That would probably be the worst case scenario…you can’t really change that now. And why change to make yourself into what somebody wants you to be? You shouldn’t, but there doesn’t seem to be anyone out there who is looking for what you are.

Maybe there was, but that was awhile ago. You had longer hair and you were quieter and younger. And you can’t go back, and he can’t go forward. And when did this become about that anyway? Back to the mirror. Back away, you’ll look smaller. Maybe you’ll feel smaller for awhile. Don’t look at yourself while you walk away, you don’t look good from the side. See you soon!

Luciana, 30